It was almost three years ago when I nearly died. The trouble is I used to hate sleeping. For me it is a waste time. My work as a sound engineer takes up most of my day. I wake up around 5 am, go to work, and usually get home midnight. So I need time for myself. So that, and bad diet, and smoking a pack a day – sometimes more – naturally took its toll and I had a stroke. At 40! Not a mild stroke like a lot of people assume. It turns out I had two clots in my brain. I ALMOST DIED.
What has that got to do with a musical blog? Well, my lack of sleep has got something to do with it:
My first real idol was a guitar player named Teddy Diaz. He died. Right when I started listening to his band – the Dawn. He died right near my school. Killed by someone who was high. I was distraught. He was a great guitar player AND songwriter. I listened to him while studying for Physics and Trigonometry – which involves a lot of Math. I sucked at Math. But I passed them both. After his untimely death (at twenty-one), I sorta stopped listening to the band. And all I could think about was if he lived, what music would he have written. How many people could he have helped.
The world sucks because of his death according to a thirteen year old self. The world sucks even for a forty-three year old me.
I had many idols right after Teddy. Identity Crisis, A-ha, Fra Lippo Lippi, Depeche Mode, Echo & the Bunnymen, Metallica…etc. etc. But out of all the idolatries no one comes close to Trent Reznor – aka Nine Inch Nails.
He is the be-all, end-all idol for me. Not only for his songwriting but also for his production skills. I bought all his albums and EPs I could find. There where no downloads yet at that time. So all record shops I see, I needed to look if they have any of his music.
The last album he released was “Hesitation Marks”. Well, he and Atticus Ross. That was supposed to be his last album I would hear from him have I entered the Pearly Gates! 😉 That would have definitely sucked. Not because the album sounds bad. On the contrary!
So, that’s it. That’s one of the reasons why I want to live forever. To experience all the music that world have to offer.
To know all my idols music. And to wait for their fresh ones. To hear what they have to offer in the future. Imagine if I never heard Trent’s two new EPs. With a third one to be released this December. I would have died!